Day off work to take my daughter to Malvern for a day of fencing training. Long day, out at 7am back at 7pm and 276 miles driven but its worth it. She’s amazing, when it was over she said she didn’t enjoy it and it was a bit of a waste of time, but I watched her, she joined in, never complained and kept smiling.
As you know today is Valentines day. Not that counts for much, I bought her a card and chocolates but really? Is that the best I can do?! My poor wife is exhausted because she works so hard. That just makes me feel even worse. I want more than anything to have romance, but she simply is too tired. Actually, as I type this she has fallen asleep on the sofa, we are watching Hawaii Five 0, which she enjoys but, as every night, having worked hard at work and shopping and cooking and cleaning and and and….
I have to sort myself out, I am in and out of bad and ok days, more bad than anything else but this is helping. I can’t kick the worry and feeling of desperation.