Monday
Start of a new week and nothing is new. Have made no progress losing weight, in fact despite counting calories and not drinking I have put on 1.5lbs
What do I need to do? I have always been ridiculously heavy, but when I try I can lose some weight. It always goes back on, but this time I can’t shift a pound!!!!
Tuesday
Right knee really sore. I thought the cycling was helping but it really isn’t. I walked a lot today and now I am half crippled. Need to chase up my follow up appointment so I can get the operation I need and get back to exercise.
Wednesday
I got up really well today, despite not sleeping very well. Took my daughter to school, got some jobs done. Then I called the NHS to chase my appointment and guess what? I have been discharged!!! Apparently despite the fact the Physio said to me that I would get a follow up appointment in about 6 weeks to assess the effectiveness of the exercises, he never put that in the notes! I have now got to go back to my doctor and start all over again. It took just over 2 months to get a physio appoint the last time.
After that everything seemed too much! Everything annoyed me, such fools everywhere. On the road going to and from work, on the phone, total mindless conversations, even some of the staff wound me up. Had to walk away from one lady before I said something out of order to her.
Managed to get home to the relative safety that is my home and took my spot on the sofa and instantly hid behind my laptop. Opened Facebook and my heart lifted, my son’s girlfriend has announced she is running a Half Marathon at the end of April, which is a big (huge) deal for her, and doing it for MIND! I immediately opened her Just giving page and made a small donation. Then the darkness fell, why can’t I pick up the phone to MIND. It’s been 5 years all I have to do is pick up the phone, or walk in, they have an office in High Wycombe. It really did wind me up, got angry at the Salad Cream bottle because I couldn’t squeeze any out. It was a new bottle with the seal still intact, but by then I was so wound up, my head pounding I just couldn’t manage it. The room is spinning, noises from all around. The TV watching mindless recorded programs, the boys watching a movie in the other room. Daughter comes in and talked at me, but I have no idea what she was saying.