So a couple of weeks of getting into the groove, writing my mental health blog and at last I felt ready to do something. I have had my MRI scan on my knee and despite it being very panful and stopping me from doing any real exercise for the last 6 months, the doctors are saying its not a bad tear and that a series of injections should fix things. To be honest I am not sure I am happy about that, I need this fixing once and for all and although the injections could see results virtually straight away, which would mean I would be able to start going for good walks and maybe even a bit of jogging (and getting back to the wonderful weekly parkrun. But if it doesn’t work they have to wait 5 months before they can operate!
Anyway although the injections haven’t started yet I felt ready to start something. Firs off I did 15 minutes on the stationary bike, no resistance, but it was hard enough and it was a start. Then during the week I got to the pool twice and swam for 10 to 15 mins. Again not very much but a start. and then just now I have done 20 minutes on the bike.
The annoying thing is neither form of exercise hurt my knee, so yes I could have been doing this for months but until now, now I am focusing on my mental health I have not been able to exercise, so clearly the 2 issues are very tightly linked.
My plan for the coming week is to swim each morning immediately after dropping my daughter at school on the way to work. Let see if I manage it.
Day: 14 May 2017
Getting through the day
A day of fear and panic struck me yesterday, but rather than curing up in a ball I somehow managed to work through it. It just seemed everyone wanted a piece of me, can I do this, can I do that and not stuff that is necessarily my responsibility but I am the go to person when something goes wrong. That on top of having a pile of work the size of Everest o get through just loaded he stress.
When this happened my mind goes to mush, my heart rate increases, even my hands shake and I just panic, wanting everyone to go away and leave me alone. In fact I am getting a bit like it now typing this. So I’ll be back to it in a bit.
Well its actually been a couple of days during which I have really struggled. The day after starting this article I ended up in the pub in the afternoon and really hit it hard, which is very disappointing but I couldn’t help it at the time. The interesting thing is, now I am “back to normal” what ever normal is, I am finding it hard to remember what I felt like and therefore it is impossible to put in words! I guess all that is important it I got though it relatively well, I still functioned joined and got some exercise in. Here’s to the week ahead.