Woke up and couldn’t face the day, had been awake for hours, just laying there. Everything and nothing going round and round in my mind, getting me more and more wound up. Had a really important meeting this afternoon, which to be honest I could have breezed through, but just couldn’t face it so, after stressing about it for 2 hour I sent an email and cancelled it and instantly felt better about the rest of the day.
I was able to get on with some work, did the banking and even had a swim. I do admit I struggled to actually get out of the car, but I did and I swam and that is great.
I was just watching TV with the family and an ambulance team are dealing with a clearly depressed and lonely lady. She has no idea where she is or what she is doing. The crew are being as supportive as they can and actually doing a good job. But watching it was hard, because I understood and clearly no one else in the room does. As they say, she just needs to talk to someone, “there are plenty of charities and people that will help!” yes there are, but if you can’t reach out they are no good. If it was that easy people wouldn’t have these problems. I had to go into another room in the end (and am typing this) before someone in the room saw the tears.
