I’ve had a better than average week and Wednesday and Thursday had the best night’s sleep for longer than I can remember. Today, up at a reasonable time, out with daughter to a mini competition and then went over to see eldest girls new house and out for lunch. Back home, took youngest out for her first drive in her car. Settled into a quiet relaxing evening in from of the TV. What could possibly go wrong? Well I can’t explain it, but I am really struggling to hold it together. Really lonely, chest tight, tearful, really tearful! Why? What happened between 5pm and 8pm?