6 years, maybe more, of struggling everyday has to come to an end. I desperately want to reach out to my family and friends but when ever I decide to I can’t find the moment. Maybe writing it down will help me come to terms with my issues and should anyone else read this maybe it will help them too.
So now I’ve explained some background I’ll start to detail feelings and experiences from now on, if its jumbled, boring or generally doesn’t make sense I apologise now.
Mental Health Day!
So what is this day supposed to accomplish? Who is it for?
For the depressed and anxious? I don’t think so! How does being reminded of it on the TV, radio, papers and internet help? We know how dark and lonely life is. How impossible coping can be especially if
A wasted year!?
So a year ago today I was all set to spill the beans, I had the perfect opportunity, all the family members and a couple of important friends, but I bottled it. So have I wasted yet another year fixing this thing?
Well lets think about it.
I have
A Facebook Post
So this morning was one of those “difficult” mornings. As usual, no idea why. I had had a nice Saturday, a reasonable nights sleep by my standards. maybe having that extra hour was the killer. Anyway as per usual the wife is up being busy and useful, me? I’m juts
Dark and Darker
Although the title is fairly dramatic, its hard to explain how I feel these past few weeks. On the hole, when doing things, while my mind is occupied I would say I am coping quite well. Fairly level headed, a bit slow and reluctant to do things and short tempered,
Out in the open
Well my issues are out in the open, well sort of and only to my wife! But it’s a start I guess.
The sad thing is I didn’t tell her she asked me. In fact she thought I was having an affair and had got herself in a right old
2 weeks on
After a day or so I went to see my doctor. Unfortunately my usual doctor was not available and the lady I saw really showed no interest. I think we exchanged 2 words she wrote me a prescription for some anti-depressants and gave me a self referral form to fill
Where did that come from?
So its not going to just be a case of popping a few pills and everything will be fine! What a dreadful day and from nowhere. Got up fine, breakfast, did a few jobs jumped in the car and off to work. Then boom, half way to work just couldn’t
Off the Meds
I’ve come off the meds, I’m not 100% sure they were making the difference and the side effects are driving me crazy. I’ll see how it goes and go back to the Doctors at some point. Still need to book the therapy sessions, which I know is stupid but actually
Time to bring this to a close
Its December 3rd 2017 and I don’t think it is appropriate to keep this blog up to date anymore. I am coping with the help and support of my wife and that needs to be enough.
I have one major step still to take though. I need to share this